The thing was, my bestfriend texted me, he was so pitiful. His relationship with his girlfriend was failing. I want him to wake up from that curse-filled relationship. But I don't know how. So he asked me if he can stay here in our home. He promised me that he will never bother or disturb me. He said he just wanted to have someone who can listen to him. But I said NO.
He said, "I'm on my way".
That moment, I panicked. I don't know what to do. First, I really wanted to finish that damn report. And second, uh. I don't know the second one. All I know was that, he mustn't come. He'll be okay if he did just stay in his home.
He came. I was devastated. I don't know what to do. I don't know what was happening to me. I felt that, I was at my worse state of being me.
What happened? I didn't entertain him. I stood him up outside. I just texted him to go home or find another place. I did push him away without even facing him.
Deep inside, it was like, I send a soul away. A soul needing a listener. Just even a listener. The fact that I am his bestfriend, it was so painful for both of us. I felt that his heart broke tonight, TWICE.
To my bestfriend "Mac", if you are reading this right now, I am really sorry. I was so selfish. My attitude towards you was definitely rubbish. You may not know what am I feeling right now, but I know how do you feel right now. Please forgive me. Give me another chance to love you once more, unconditionally. :'(
I do really regret that this night came and I have to be that hard on him.
From what had happened tonight, I learned a very important lesson. We must not be selfish especially when helping others. We may have our own definition of helping others, but we must always remember that, theirs are different. And sometimes, they just need an ear to hear them out.
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