Pagsuko - Jireh Lim

I was crying after dinner tonight. I felt pathetic. I cannot think well. I felt like no one was willing to give ample time to listen. Then, all of a sudden, someone offered to call me via mobile phone. 

We had a chat about something that I was overthinking for the past few weeks. Finally, I had the chance to open up without holding back. It was like someone put a dagger behind my back and that person retrieved that dagger. It was a "whew!" That person may not be able to give me much advice for the situation, but he is truly a blessing for me! Knowing that he's willing to share my pain, to listen to my dramatic story, still, with a bigger heart and the willingness to serve others, he nailed it!

After the phone call was finished. Another friend appeared thru Facebook all of a sudden. We had a small chat. I started to ask questions about something we both knew. After that, I did already the first move. I told that person about a secret that was so fragile. Though I won't tell you that secret. :P

I thought that my friend will go ballistic and mad! But, that didn't happen! In the end, we ended up agreeing with one another, saying that my friend understands me most. And so on and forth. 

Why am I telling you this story?

For the past few weeks, my relationship with a person that was so special to me back then came back after work. We met again. I realized that I still like him. I think I do love his company. I do love him. (OMG. I'm just 19 and I know you'll hate me about that! HAHAHA!) 

So, I am trying my luck and my best to win him back. Even though it was my fault why he isn't mine anymore. That's why, I am trying my best to make it up for him. But he was so unsure. 

Our relationship together was like a wind. It was so sudden. Yet, we both know, that the sudden rush of breeze and warmth of our relationship will last in our memories.

Right now, I am waiting what will happen next. I am just letting God work on His floor plan. He knows best. 

I am dedicating this song to our relationship. How I wish that one day, he will realized, that we are made for each other, and that no one must interefere in our relationship except the Lord God. :')

Pagsuko - Jireh Lim

Maari ba muna natin tong pagusapan
Sa dami-rami na ng ating pinag daanan
Ngayon mo pa ba maiisipang isuko 
Ang lahat ng ating pinag samahan 

Masikip sa damdamin hinigop ng hangin
Ang lakas, pinag hihinaan ng wagas
Pwede bang pag isipan wag ka munang lumiban
Baka sakali na ito ay masalba pa

Refrain:
Lumalamig ang gabi
Hindi na tulad ng dati

Chorus:
May pagasa pa ba kung susuko ka na
Larawan mo ba ay lulukutin ko na
Sa hirap at ginhawa tayo ay nagsama
Damdamin mo tila ay napagod na
Ikaw at ako ay alaala na lang
Kung susuko ka na

Bawat pangarap na ating pinagusapan
Pupunta na lang ba ito sa wala
Hayaan mong ituwid ang pagkakamali
Sa mga oras na to alam kong ika'y lito

Refrain:
Lumalamig ang gabi
Hindi na tilad ng dati

Chorus:
May pagasa pa ba kung susuko ka na
Larawan mo ba ay lulukutin ko na
Sa hirap at ginhawa tayo ay nagsama
Damdamin mo tila ay napagod na
Ikaw at ako ay alaala na lang
Kung susuko ka na